dont lose your faith in the good.

I'm going to start a meeting for over thinkers anonymous...where all the over thinkers can just get together and explain to each other what situation they have over analyzed this week. hi, I'm krystal and I'm an over thinker. This week it's past relationships. A year ago I was in Brazil, determined to experience a new culture and a new life. I wanted my independence back, I needed it! I left with many goals, but one was to break free of a bad relationship, and to remind myself that my life will most certainly continue without him. Looking back a year, I have achieved most of what I wanted. I have my independence back, I'm free...and for the first time in 5 years I feel SINGLE. I WAS single, I have been single for a LONG time, but it never felt that way because I had so much hope...that if I was faithful and cared he would realize that I was his best option. I still am his best option, obviously, but I have taken myself out of the running...I quit. The reason all this is coming back into play, is now that I am at home and exposed to the temptations and the bad habits I have something I haven't had in a while...common sense and renewed freedom. My life DID continue without him, and I experienced a beautiful country, and beautiful men :) Realizing this I have opened up a lot, I am happier and more willing to experience new relationships...I know I have come so far because I can FINALLY look at the relationship and I'm not angry or sad. I am just glad I'm not wasting anymore time. It may have taken me too long to realize this, but I am so freaking happy TO BE BACK. bring it on world. single and ready to mingle.